Turn Up the Music and Drown It Out Because Nothing's Worse Than This Sound

Overflowing with thoughts...as if this is something new for me.

"You are incapable of loving someone if you can't love yourself," she says.

Cliche? Yes. True? Who can say?

"Not everyone is the same you can't place all of humanity in the same category, maybe there is such a selfless love where you would undoubtedly give anything and everything blindly. Maybe there comes a day where you fall unconditionally and irrevocably in love with someone without reason." Is what I say.

"That's foolish," is what I think to myself, "crazy even," another hushed thought.

There was other words exchanged and still I left the discussion, views unaltered.

Love. Simply a four letter word and yet, it is the meaning behind it that holds significance. It is sacrifice, it IS selflessness and an inexplicable connection immediately, a sense of trust without time and a closeness that cannot be forgotten. There does not exist a moment where you put yourself before that other person because as it is said, "To the world you are but one person...but to one person you are the world." I hold those words close to my heart.

How can one continue to have such faith in humanity in a world like ours? I could never answer that question for I wonder sometimes how long I myself can hold on to that faith. It's been slipping lately I've even contemplated changing schools, starting new, getting away from my past, although I'm not one to run. That looming feeling of unfathomable loneliness is overcoming me, one that could not be satisfied in the most populated of places.

She says it will fade and I lay there studying her face, I see nothing but truth in her crystal blue eyes and slight relief washes over me momentarily. Then I think of the past and I know it will take a lot longer than she anticipates, perhaps longer than I do. I see a solution, starting over, but is that an impossibility? I cannot be sure. At this point she has become my unattainable dream, so where so we go from here? Only time will tell. For now I will simply drown out the noise with music, as I have always done.