You Want To Talk About Awkwardness or Will That Make You Feel Uncomfortable?

I think about the past, think about all the people that walked in and right back out of my life. How much of it was actually worth it? Whether or not I gained something from it isn't what I mean. What I mean is, how many people were worth meeting in the first place. If you know me well at all you know I over think things to the point of insanity, it makes my observations of people and situations alike, very thorough, but it usually ends up hurting me more than anyone else, it makes me too empathetic and often ends up bringing me down in one way or another. Although if it's to help someone else, particularly someone I love I've always done it regardless, that's not a choice to me.

The honest truth is if you really love someone whether it is as family, as a friend, a lover or a mentor, no matter what the case if you care about that person enough, you put the pride aside that sits between you and an acquaintance. Pride is something that is very important to me and it's not even for a reputation but for the sake of self-worth, so if you are really important to me you know it because I've most likely told you more truth than you would like to hear. That's more than I could say for several people though, you all like to point fingers at other people or situations all to avoid the actual problems or how you actually feel about someone or SOMETHING.

If you're hurt about something or disappointed, why take it out on someone for something that has nothing to do with you and is none of your business? Or why blame things that go wrong in your life on others when it's not their fault? If you're unhappy with something acknowledge it and express it, it's called com - un - ic -a - tion, it's that thing that two people that are "best friends" or are otherwise in a relationship have, without it you might as well not have a relationship at all (if you could call it that). How hard is it really to say "I feel *blah blah blah* because *insert explanation here*? But no you all have to bury your problems until it's impossible to save whats left of the friendship etc.

Out of honesty all of you that DO, do that are full of shit. There's no way around it, how can you call yourself a best friend when you obviously don't act the part? How can you say you love someone to everybody else and then when it's convenient say you're not sure how you feel? How can you say to someone, "I could never replace you" one day and then the next day, say "I met someone that can take your place". It's all bullshit, you know what? You're not obligated to give someone a title so if you don't mean it then don't say it, if someone doesn't mean something to you, don't tell the world they do, people are so engulfed with their own lives they don't care what someone means to you. So why put on a show when no one's watching? Tell the truth, express yourself and suck it up because at the end of the day what've you got to lose, when the only thing worth saving will be destroyed if you DON'T say it?


"Wouldn't the world be better off if we decide..
we don't need our pride anymore"